Tanubhrt.This.Side

Some days are just beautiful, aren’t they! Nothing in particular wrong with the day, yet they hit you in the gut as if something went entirely wrong! May be these are the days which often are the ones where the subconscious mind takes a hit for what happened, or may be the body gets to feel it slowly!

Often the day next to the result day, not the entire process of examination, but that of the day after result! When its about the exam, the entire energy is into the exam, giving your best, sometimes even trying to give your best! The result day often is just the day when you finally meet the results you have been waiting. It is often only the day next to it, when you get to finally compare yourself with everyone else around. Just to find out sometimes that may be the person who did not work that hard on it, got it better than you. Or sometimes that someone who was cool about it, understood it better. That in the drama of things happening, you somehow got lost in the conundrum of some stupid things, the ones that should have been ignored. like choosing to work extra hard on a topic which you later realise was not on the syllabus or was not the most often asked question.

It is in the next day of the result that things settle down and although everything seems right, there is something that tells you that for the result to change, it not going to be just hard work, but rather a change of habits in you! The same old person will not give the results you are seeking for, and so it is important to change the persona around you. Your habits need to change and the new life of yours has no space for the older you!

I don’t know if you have felt it, but it does happens and for me that is today. An unsettling energy around the body telling that the entire being has to change, the older habits will have to be thrown away only for the new life to settle better, to happen better. It is no longer about working hard, but just about letting go of all the old ways for the new ones to form!

May be life is indeed in itself a process of death and birth all through it, until finally the body leaves!

Avantika Tanubhrt