Tanubhrt.This.Side

There is something about these nights, something that is not letting me sleep. A heaviness in the eye which pushes to go to bed, but some uneasiness which does not lets sleep! As if there is some unfinished business always left for the day, something that has to be done, only after which can I go to sleep.. The problem with this business is that I am not sure what this is about! The irritation rises when because of this, the next day does not happen properly..

Do you have any solution for this? I know, some of you might say, that I must just go to bed and not open my eyes, honestly, I have done that more number of times than you know, or can think off! This does not help. There is something that is off putting and so this draft is an attempt to identify that. Could it be possible that may be I am not working my brain enough for it to retire by the time I want to go to sleep and since I am just retiring my body, although it does want to sleep, the brain is just not allowing, as if there is some unfinished work, as if it has not been used enough and feels awake no matter how long I put my eyes on rest.

If I tell that writing this draft would help, I would suggest NO, a big NO. This is where my fingers are getting used and I am just dozing of the time that I have left, hoping that I would get to sleep even though, it is not using any of the brain. May be that is why people often say that challenges are important for life, may be that is why steve jobs said, that it does not matter to me how much money I earnt in a day, but what matters is I can go to sleep peacefully. Few years back when I read these things I thought these are some fascinating things, these are the things, the traits that probably make steve jobs great. Well, thinking of it now, these might have been the least of the ones that made him great. Not because I also feel the same, but because this is a human trait, it is a basic human tendency, the mind and the body that we got are actually more of a master and slave for us.

They are slave when we feed them with whatever they want, sometime discipline them into getting things done, but become master when we let them squander on their own. It is then that the mind and body start controlling us, that they let us own us, this is when we actually convert from humans to animals. I think so!

So, what could let me go to sleep, probably, studying, definitely studying . Working on my goals and my body, it is this and only this that help in getting sleep. Knowing that the day that went by was a good day and we did made progress. Having achieved something, having made a progress, having hustled can help in sleeping.

For a long time, I also thought that may be talking to my loved ones, will help. Actually it does not, that is similar to what I am doing right now, meaningless endless conversations.

By the way, when we are on the topic of meaningless conversations, do you think music plays an important part in our lives? I mean we often underestimate the power of music, the lyrics, they can make us empowered, make us feel as if we are with someone, not alone that the struggles that are there in our lives are not just ours, but have been fought with our fellow fighters and upon their strength we must take it forward and fight our own battles.

Well, for today I am signing off to complete some meaningful work so that I can get to sleep.

Toodles fellas!

Take care!

Avantika Tanubhrt