The 20-minute timer has started and at this time there is no stopping. Cannot stop for a minute to think about things and need to write down whatever feels right to me. So, what should I write about! Seems like it has been so long that I have written about anything as well! Nothing seems to be coming out of me! There have been times that I wrote about the things that I was learning, times I wrote about things going on in life, times I even wrote love letters but well this time, what should I even write about. Maybe, well maybe about things that are around me.
On a desk that is comfortable enough for me, my laptop and some random things and a chair that corporate life gifted me, on a laptop that can easily be called, because it is, a corporate laptop, looking at the green wall and then the laptop screen, I am typing things that are gibberish. Not making sense, adding sentences to complete the 20 minutes of the timer that is going on! Am I, am I doing the same with life? Is it how things are moving in life as well for me? The timer, the timer is ticking and not knowing what to do, every day I feel I am waking up to do something gibberish and then sleep down! What a sad life, right? But, then! These vogue people I tell ya! The moment I write down, Oh! I might be having a sad life, there are 1000 people, I know who would come around talking, you are in an AC room, you got a life to live, you are breathing, a high-paying salary, and what else do you need! There are so many people who do not have food to eat in their life! You, you are such a piece of shit, ungrateful fuck! Well, I am not an ungrateful fuck, for starters. I am grateful for what I have and I do wish that I get what I want. I think life is about that only right? I mean, would Sachin Tendulkar be happy being a cook, when his heart beats for Cricket!
Either way, in front of me, is a golden nail polish, one thing that I bought in my gibberish days, randomly! Is it just me, or does it happen to others as well! So, the moment I get some money, I feel like okay the balance is getting better, I start finding things that might need, or the things that people of my age should have! It is in these random gibberish moments that I got this golden nail polish. But, when I got it, I learnt one thing about this part of fashion! Colorbar is a good brand. The nail paints are good, stay longer, are vegan and often even are difficult to remove.
Next to the nail polish is a book, the one that I am reading, Life’s amazing secrets. Honestly, it is a good book, but I, I have lost the enthusiasm for life to an extent, where these motivational books do nothing to me. There have been days when I read so many books, be it Paulo Cohelo, Chetan Bhagat, Autobiographies, or New York best sellers, well that is how I buy books! Either a good author or a biography or a best seller or sometimes, on the basis of what is written on the back of it! But, having read all these life-altering books, I have realized that life is about being invested. How much are you invested in your life, we often forget but in the true sense, life is actually a duty, a duty we have to do and we have to keep on doing until life retires us from its duty. It does not matter much whether we do it good or bad, but we got to do it, there is no escape to it. And the people who are the happiest are the ones who do it in the best possible way. Who give their heart out to their duty, who maintain a sense of loyalty towards their life, more than any loyalty they ever have. This I know for sure.
Below the book, are my notes. Notes about earning money. Never did I think that I would stay in the IT industry for 7 long years, and I think I might stay for some more time. But, it has been long. I always thought two years and then I am out of it. What a stupid plan, isn’t it. I think that in life, we cannot set a time for things. It takes whatever time it has to, you have complete a journey to begin the other one, and sometimes unless you reach your goal of starting a journey, you never get to start the other journey! Also, time, time is so cliched thing, don’t you feel so! Like, the time taken for Earth to complete its job of taking a revolution, we termed it a day. But that is Earth’s day and obviously, we do live in it, so it would be our day as well, but often that is not the case right?
Sometimes one day of our life is actually equal to weeks of Earth’s day. I have learnt that we need to complete our work, our job with whatever efforts and soul that we have in our hearts and when it’s done and only when it is done, compare it to the time taken by Earth for its revolutions. Defining a time limit, even before we begin, is like cooking a dish that you never have cooked and giving it a random time. So, maybe you have cooked maggie before, you cannot give all the dishes in the world, the same time, just because you only know that time! Some things take time, they have their own curve and maybe we should just keep working on our work and only when it’s done, give it the time it took.
Am I even talking any sense? Even if I am not, my time for the day is about to be complete. This is the beginning of the drafts, to make sense out of the gibberish things in life and to give life the time it needs to make the perfect dish!!
Signing off
Avantika Tanubhrt
Tanubhrt.This.Side 
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