Tanubhrt.This.Side

I don’t know,

What should I do?

Should I tell my mind to stop thinking about him?

Or my heart to stop missing him?

I don’t even know,

If it is that stupid flashback that comes

And you need to be strong enough,

To let it go!

Or should I hold on to it,

Because

After all, it is not the stupid flashback.

I never thought that it could feel so strong,

I didn’t know that missing him is going to be so hard,

I wish I knew!!

I don’t even know,

Whose side should I take,

The heart or the brain!!

The more important issue,

Who is exactly what!!

Is it the heart that is bleeding for him?

Or

The mind that is deceiving me?

After listening to every move on song,

And reading, every, “fuck you” quote,

I am still confused.

Those beautiful moments do come back to me,

And I wish I could just decide,

What I want to do with them!

Ignore them or hold them!

I wish I knew,

What you feel!!

May be decision taking could be easier,

But,

Here I am,

With no clue of past, present or future,

Wandering in my thoughts,

Trying to convince that maybe I should move on

May be if he forgot everything,

It is time for me as well.

But, I wish I knew,

What he said was even true!!