Tanubhrt.This.Side

I know that it will pass.
I know that the problem will be solved.
But,
for the reasons unknown,
I am not able to handle it.
Even the slightest of things,
are making me cry,
even the smallest of troubles,
are making me lose hope.
I don’t know what is troubling me deep inside,
I don’t know if it is the present problem,
or the past grievances,
but I feel fucked up,
lost and worn out.
Something deep inside says everything is fine,
but the heart and the mind are in no mood of listening.
The head is heating up,
the heart is feeling strained,
I don’t know what exactly is happening,
right now,
I just feel like dying.
Getting rid of everything happening,
and letting it all go.
I know even this thought is dangerous,
and I have never felt it like this,
But,
now,
I do.
I feel like just throwing all of it,
the everyday problems,
the dying dreams,
the passion,
the wish of making a change,
just letting it all go,
and die.
Go into the peace,
where I have no one to answer,
no one to express,
no troubles,
nothing.
I have never felt this before,
but yes I do.
I do now.
I don’t know why
I don’t know if its fine,
but,
I feel fucked up,
lost and worn out!!