Tanubhrt.This.Side

 I am right now at sudhowala/selaqui ( I am not sure and who the hell cares where I am). The point is around me are like hundreds of trees and the cool breeze is striking me and making me feel like heaven. Rather, to be more specific, I would say, I am in the border. To the left of me are the houses, vehicles, roads; you see “the development” is to the right of me. To the left of me is forest. Complete greenery. I can see different kinds of trees, different shapes of them. Some are bent forward, some are straight, while others are swinging from left to right. There are grasses and then there are lots of them. And it has even started to rain. I can see the goat coming out, maybe she is interested in rain(so like me). From nowhere the birds have started singing and it all seems so pleasant. Oh shit! I guess the rain is going to fall heavily now. But I am in a hope that may be it doesn’t.

Looking at all of it I wonder, do these trees and grasses fight with each other? Or do they blame god? Do they even have a religion? Do they cry? Do they have ego? The theist around me believe that everything was created by god. I wonder if god has created us, he must have created us all equal. He must have given all of us some innate capabilities, something that we might be really good at. Something that can define us! Well, if this is so, why do we tend to forget it?

Why do we forget that if we are born in this universe, there must have been some reason, there must be something. What is the point then to become someone else? Why do most of us want to be entrepreneurs or why is there a rush about going to United States? Aren’t we all the same?

Do grasses fight with god, asking why he/she mad her so small? Do trees fight with god, why there are no fruits in them? Do some trees with fruits complain, “why don’t they have fruits throughout the year?”Do they? What if Himalayas said, “Why am I so cold? Why can’t I have moderate temperature?” Do deserts fight as to why don’t trees grow there? Does it happen?

Because I can’t see all of this happening just like I can’t see god! Sometimes I wonder, why do people look for God( according to me positive energy) in some temples or mosques or churches? I think if god exists and if he/she has created the universe, he must be in every particle of it. Like, for example, I write. I have got this blog of mine. So, I am in this blog. Reading my blogs is equivalent to talking to me. Because after all I am the one who wrote it. Similarly if god is here, he must be everywhere. And if he has created all of us, he must have created us equal. The girls, the boys, the gays, the animals, the trees everyone. For e.g. I create my blogs with whole heart. All of them. I am not like,” Oh!! This blog is on that topic so I will put more effort, and that blog is on different topic, so I will just put it, just like that!!”

Wandering from here and there I have realized that we all are great people. We all are equally talented. Some may be great singers, some may be great photographers, some may be fantastic lawyers or others may be great scientist. I don’t know, but I think life is not about becoming someone else, I guess it is about finding your true self. Doing something that you are meant to do. Instead of running after money and bungalows and cars, I guess running after finding the true self and living with that is what must be the goal. I am theist a turned atheist. So, I can’t say if god also says what I am trying to say. But I guess I find this rush idiotic.  The rush about making money, living in a one crore bungalow is stupid, because if that rush doesn’t even allows you a minute with your parents or your children what kind of shit is that!!

Right now I am not trying to motivate anyone, all I am saying is I am a 21 years old girl. The age when people are running after a good job and a nice life, I am here sitting and looking around and trying to figure out who I am. And I guess, the world needs people who know who they are, who can be true to themselves and instead of competing with others, enjoy the differences of each other and create something marvelous. So, if you are in the rush, just take a pause and think about it.  Who are you? why are you? what are you doing? And more importantly why?

Because seriously if I find myself, I will need those who themselves know who they are:P:P